What Happens When You're In Too Deep...

Most people run away. Hell, I usually run away. But why am I not running this time?

What makes this time so different?

Even when I know it's doomed to fail. Masochistic I guess. Hopeful is just retarded to pass it off as.

So tell me this...if I know I'm going to end up screwed, what is going to have to happen for me to get smart and walk away?

Tired.

I'm so tired. Tired of fake people. Tired of trying to be a friend to people who refuse to return the friendly favor. I'm tired of trying to prove myself to people. I am me. Acceptance isn't neccessary. Whatever. Tired. That's what I am. Tired of fake people. Fake friends.

My Questions

• Why do people feel the need to make you feel so awful about yourself?
• Why do families fall to pieces?
• Why does happiness have to be so brief?
• What does "I'll tell you when you're older mean"?
• How can someone just not love you anymore?
• If it takes more muscles to frown than to smile, why is it just easier to frown?
• Why do we have to grow up?
• Why is it that when you work your hardest for something, you don't get it, but when someone else doesn't even try for something, it just falls into their lap?

Biggest Question:

• WHERE DO WE FIND THE ANSWERS TO OUR MOST PRESSING QUESTIONS???

"People create their own questions because they
are afraid to look straight. All you have to do is look straight and see the
road, and when you see it, don't sit looking at
it-walk." -Ayn Rand

My Way

If I needed someone to tell me when to go to class, I'd have gone to the college in town, stayed at home, and had my MOTHER tell me to go to class. I am an adult. I can go to class when I damn well feel like it. Yeah yeah yeah. "We only do it because we care." "I have classes too and I make it to all of mine." Too bad they don't spend enough time caring about themselves and too bad I'm not them. I don't do things other people's way. I do them my way. If I fail in my way, then it's not anyone else's freaking problem but my own. It's not anyone else's friggin business. I'll do things my own damn way. I'll make my own damn mistakes and I'll learn from them when I damn well please. I've made plenty of mistakes of my life. Yes, some of them, I've made multiple times, but I have learned from all of my mistakes none-the-less. My life has been entirely too hard to be bitched at for such trivial things.